Archive for December, 2006

Ho! Ho! Ho!

December 25, 2006 at 8:29 pm · Filed under Rant

MErry Christmas y’all!! A couple of hours late maybe, but somehwere in the world it is still Christmas!:) I’ve had a fantastic day. Nah just the last few hours actually. But, after all, it is the ending that counts innit! ;)

One major advice. Never. I repeat NEVER sit next to your mum while your driving your own car for the first time. Well, atleast, my mum :) . Paranoia Personified. Before I could even put my foot on the accelerator, I heard it “Nahi!! Break Lagao Break Lagao”. And all I could do was burst out laughin. It was so hilarious!! What a day it was.

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I love the whole “christmassy” feeling in the air and all the “best-of-the-year” crap. It’s like the entire globe is welcoming something new. And, finally something irreligious! The oncoming of the new year seems to unite the whole world out there. But, I still can’t understand how the fuck (excuse me for the expletive, but, I just can’t finish my sentence without using the word for her!) Aishwariya Rai managed to be nominated as part of the NDTV Indian Of the Year 2006! It’s shameful I say! Is India so celebrity obsessed?!

Not everyone out there might be partying on new year’s eve but it’s the mere celebration of a brand new year! The year end reviews. Hits, flops, blah, blah. Funny, but, I love catching ‘em all. Debate out loud if I object to stuff I don’t consider just! (c’mon!! Aishwariya Rai!!)

There, vague again! Anyway Merry Christmas again y’all!!

I’m just high on air! :D

Current Pinworm: QUEEN – I want To Break Free

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Home at last!

December 21, 2006 at 7:29 am · Filed under Hmmmmm...., Rant, Retarted Musings...

I’m back home. And I thought I’d be happy to be here. Thought. Happy I am. But, I find my frustrations surmounting heights. And for no damn reason that I understand. I thought I’d be meetin up with everyone I’ve known in the last eighteen years before I’m finally gone for good. I will be coming back of course, but it just won’t be the same.

I can’t seem to stand anything around me, and I see myself irritated at silly petty issues. Maybe it’s the surpressed freedom. Friends I tag along with all day, I’m irritated with ‘em all. I also see the distinct difference in my perceptions of the city before I left for Delhi and after. I know too many people here. Just too many. And, I’m happier being invisible there. But, I’m surprised to see how absolutely completely I’ve settled down in a city I hardly knew less than six months ago….

I’ve always been a person who believes in not attaching myself to human connection. Reason unknown. Probably, to shield myself from hurt, or the mere ego factor. But, I’ve completely detached myself. Even my closest friends over the years don’t seem to be reason enough for me to shell my shield and share stuff. My association seems to be just with me. I meet new people. Keep in touch, and blah, blah. But, I’ve learnt to shadow my emotions completely. The little I did, has moved on to “more”. All, I keep doing is analysing myself, see if i’ve acted hastily here and there, or if my ego was an obstruction to work or conversations. And, I try and alter it. Self restrospection is all I keep doing. I need to get back. It’s another silly phase I know. But, it’s probably also because I haven’t been here. Delhi’s a place where I know everyone is still at a stage of judging me. I do it too. All of six months, and, we’re trying to decipher the people we’re associated with. Try and help out in anyway we can. But, I’m tired of being judged. Even, back home. Do I pay attention. Do I listen. Do I argue. Blah, blah, blah. I’ve had enough of it all.
But that shouldn’t be the reason for me to stop sharing things. My only outlet seems to be this little blog.

I seem to have become so much of a loner. I tend to get quiet once in a while. But the thoughts that I am alone, stress upon even more….

And already…… I just can’t wait to be back…

Current Pinworm: GOO GOO DOLLS – Iris

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Even now? Still?

December 16, 2006 at 6:12 pm · Filed under Hmmmmm...., Rant, Retarted Musings..., Sant Frustoo

It seems so silly. Just because you still can’t forgive the other even when it wasn’t their fault, you keep snapping at them everytime. Pounding those thoughts back That every thought. Thwarting back the past in your face. Whose fault was it anyway? No. That won’t help you either will it, to sober you down. Stop. Come on! How much ever throughout the time you’re saying the friendship will always last in this. You and the world know, Damn right it won’t. Everything that occurs in the next phase will pull back the memories of the last.

Is there anything to prove this?

You still won’t believe me, will you?

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Vague Ramblings..!

December 5, 2006 at 6:36 am · Filed under Rant

Since, I can’t seem to find enough time and the mood to get down to write, I thought I’d put up stuff that I found nice and quite made me ponder too..

“I need a Vitamin he, while, you need a Vitamin me”

– :) Saw it on a status message.

“It is such a secret place, the land of tears.”

– Coutesy: A little prince.

“Learn from the weather….It pays no attention to criticism”

– This has been one of ma favourites over the years. Don’t remember where I read it though. :P

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Yelp!

December 3, 2006 at 6:03 pm · Filed under Uncategorized

Umm Scribbler’s block??? Already? I know there’s so much I wanna write about! HELP!!!

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